.060

youre still

flavoring in my mouth 

crossing brutalized and abandoned

a few who speak would never breathe

that silence is marriage

gifts in the dark so under full

wear our marks tonight

the beating fates of fire engines

stainless 

strangers slipped in trust

scratching hopeless 

n cheap tokens

how is it to touch?

memories faded, a truth against the sun

stacking backs, wounded 

indestructible

shines out 

of a telescope 

wishes and the greeting of palms

an empty secret, hold me

where are we going, it doesnt matter

a strange holiday 

mass wake up calls

.058

another sun, waking the dust

nothing ever settles

hanging mid air reminders

reminding drops 

just where they fall

we can ignore it

step over it

catch fragments

from where they slipped

smearing the headlines

turns out 

we're fucked

.057

everything is tiring
please put me to sleep
i cant hold on to anything
except my dreams


we're near no beginning
but ill never forget the end
i kissed u so sweetly
like i never did


so stay swallowed in my mind
playing in decadence, stray to mime
hold my life and bless my side


and when i wake up
im tired 

.056

playing in ur shadow box

with skulls of static hung out on wire

paths erratic, and the hopes u can open

lost tokens, waring those heart beats

covered discrete 

and enchantingly

following 

.055

pinched pockets 
screaming
shaking dues
bruised vessels spilled outward
cores lie, viable blessings
a release returning
countless, again

.054

crumbling older 

and shaking bad apples

mercy for the rotten 

for their mush

thrown solids and black

im silently announcing 

a dead waste 

there will never be 

a better day

.053

waking mixes

an ideal omen

hushes rusted 

renders a broken message

it reads "never leave"

magnetic pulses noble

courses soft

and the lights blurred

each delicate drug

flowed through

my face is too open 

my mouth is absurd

ur staring and 

mines madness

kissed by purity 

every word

devoured and

every word

free

take me

.052

dusk brought electric lights

the metal shifts to present

gated unless we bought tickets
ill cover you, nothing

bare dreams
and
my hands are loud between us


low postings tenured


where is your blood tonight?
and
where is our love tonight?
flooding calls in diamonds
crushing shakes


sometimes everything
sometimes you


a primary tender
and im following your voice
lips speak gentler dreams
and the world becomes hazy


we're here 
and ive found my hands

.051

dream backdrops and florid

meant to be set free

space shelters

halfway 

other themes

missing bodies kiss perfect

our hunts redundant

for peculiar content

the best views

with 

look throughs

.050

there's why

there's end

my betweens

because

.049

hidden inventions

turning on those ways

fighting maybes

then go

a starting fall

unknown

far gones

troubled

built open

.048

hes singing to me

a heart open

aching signs

im remembering

mornings

hands how

with answers

this walk

where we've 

been

.047

in the grazes of ever fault

a tied root to the sky

reaching and falling

at the same time

dust cloud realities

the songs that sing

a whisper to wander

dont mean anything

im kissing.

im crying.

uselessness

.046

a stumbled fate 
broke steps open
a candied hand 
smooths concrete
until he rises dead 
to find me
placed crowns on his mark
skeletal dreams 
spoke royal hearts
nothing
nothing again
i made this grave


for me

.045

indigent machines

like fuck you flowers

counting time's wasteful

and i'll love my misery

did you know I need to eat?

newsprints of yesterday

those thoughts exposed

don't translate 

for goodness sake

almost graves

and for what i didn't save

endured nothing

imagin'd disfigured

alive and dead

ps I love you

.044

nothing speaks

emission arrows

point to my soul

a giant hole

trapping unknown 

comings 

fictitious and wise

forms sigh

a genuine loss

.043

inches away 

and im skin 

hiding delicate bones

lonely space filled low and 

drugging.

binding eyes

a slow please

feet away and our

limbs twisted in venom

mornings sway 

im kissing your pillow.

make believe

faces hide in the memory

no need for hearts today

not even a dream.

.042

midnight sections

pieces

living ways 

inbetweens

idle ghosts

sinking 

under lonely

waves

crushing deep

a surface dwells

dead dreams 

nothing to 

keep

.041

blushing under topless 

hurting catch tosses

see through me

and everything

never moved

it couldnt stay

lost breaths

no hands

no voice

a certain death

gone

.040

hold on
carry on
grabbing
invisible dates 
gathering
words
something
anything
whatever
please
say 
the right
words

.039

unpublished thoughts:

we are everything

.038

wondering knows where the heart follows

simple names rise against nothing

its there, i feel it

i didnt say it

its better this way

there i said it

and now

when you're old 

i know you'll understand 

because 

you reached for my hand

.037

do i fit in yet? my bones are showing and im hoping i receive some sort of medal
of honor? maybe.
i cant tell how hard im trying or if i could do any better
im just doing it and hoping its the best
theres that word again
i hate it.
it gives me up just as i hold onto its dainty idea
yesterday, today, tomorrow
a longing bought with dreams

.036

one word is felt 

another is tried

one word is lived

another is a lie

one word wonders

another believes

one word speaks

another ceases

.035

theres a fly and hes cornering me
a folded page between fingers is aching to speak to him
my hand trembles and im listening to his dull drone
a hypnotizing agony
he understands the uselessness of my fight
cornered against hope and rights
he cant listen to the way i hope
if i move he wont get close
continual buzz buzz buzzing
drowning the peace 
its annoying

.034

we ran away in this crowd

crying for breaths

sharing this dull holiday

the usual press

between hands 

where we grabbed 

the urge to

go

leaving the clear 

and 

our 

constant in the dark

unknown shows

where misery ends

rolling credits 

i kissed ur hand

and

we left our heartbeats

without a plan

its ok

im forgetting everything

.033

truth is im drowning,
sinking beyond the horizon
where the edges changed again
where
on the other side
deep lies in the dirt
where theres worms
im eating them all and
i know
you
want 
to kiss
me

.032

bury this illuminated heart

the whole of your eye

a counter part

stifle our breaths and lose this death

a soiled story where my angels met

everything

everything i said

i meant

dont look away

hold betrayal in days augment

a vow to leave when i want to stay

a name to kiss when my face decays

a dream filtered with our ultimate chase

.031

hints through fabrics 
deafening  
giving it all away 

shy needs searching 
a face in the dark

staring back forever
black whispers
a
name

 

.030

it started 

with my flesh

deteriorating meals

one bite after 

next

youre done 

blasting utensils

on

take out hearts 

taken with midnight

under quality sheets

a napper you 

composed

disguised lifeless

with

beating bones 

i hate 

you and 

where 

this is going

.029

this scene was cut

finished

done

come deadly cult rashes

soft hands in pockets

taking nerves 

away

i thought you said something

it was vicious and terrifying

i couldnt listen

.028

this is our density
mornings our bodies crumbled
half blood and unseen
fingerprints under sheets
no rescue until tender
no bounds to splendor
our eyes met and made love
dreams swore sweet
and safety made your zone
after dead dial tones
a treasured den
where nothings meant
our words assent 

.027

i speak under your tongue

a cry for swallowing

a last word hurt your speech

that was me

recite a foul language over my corpse 

where hid poetry 

a deadly force

rotting thoughts where you ignored the want

the tease of being

heavier eyes 

the mourning touched 

a nothing wore blood

and we sacrificed 

~

.026

maybe there was something i sensed
we fell before a discovery~
and we fell back from the door~
now theres no exit and a ghost haunts limbo
what a world must it be in~
no feelings again~ 
those are taken by a service
im sure you've heard of it

.025

the gods said its rain today, and i smiled because its my favorite
those light specs where skin met thoughts, and the puddles caught faces 
never mind wet clothes
this way to the park where i played on metal.
to slip and fall, amused pain in my smile, what pleasures to explore~ the thrill of exhaustion
its getting late and i played all day and when i return its still the same.
Maybe I'll find a new park. 

.024

her eyes reflected mine
raptured grief would be
opposing hearts with split starts
a sum between
entirely tossed
we watch downfalls
forever whispers enclosed a kiss
forget nevers proposed 
nothing but this

.023

its dark inside, late hours

and youre snowing

faraway in quarantine
alluring

a bright storm
low

low

my vivid call, silent

naked confessions melted
by morning

.022

you fight warrior,

what do you fight?
this imaginary beast is trembling with fear
and so are you.
sometimes the weight is too heavy to lift
push it off a cliff
fall with it
and drown
if you make any sounds 
you've won.
humanity speaks

.021

tons broken graveled love

a path to find back, long winds scattered them

disarranged parts

gravity paths bore dust tremors

death letters sent homeless 

lonely knots

long fashion plans spoiled electric

infinite metal outfitted immortal hearts

.020

Standing young wandering the story, each page blank with age. I could write the nothing down, sway a mind to be free. Is there light within? Questions surely, I'm wandering after all. Will I find darkness? Worthless treasure or the edge of never. Lovers hands holding syllables, eyes that bring you home?
Maybe, turn the page. 

.019

melody fools, lost goes and burrowed
soft bridges burnt close
lights drifter strange bones
mystic words cluttered fuck 
time touching cascades hush~
traces reach deep 
specter voice raw breaks mystique~
ripping doubts a run pretend
endangered bliss
all songs end

.018

what have you taken? please tell me, im a mess you see

holding onto nothing, the dark nights told fantasy

whats real in a heart but the irrational desires to belong?

im folding those feelings away, no one owns them

but i can't leave them lying around

they'll get stepped on, stolen, or worse yet~ 

broken.

.017

stranger clouds come about, nothing inside~

you felt the rain hit, totaled faces frost lips~ cold wrecks

it didn't matter then, it doesn't matter now~

but you can't forget,

not somehow, its alone again 

the whole mistake~

.016

it must be love, i felt it tug. i cant feel you anymore but i felt rhymes relate~

the dreamscape~ a sky painted with heaven

enchanting bits danced through an electric fence,

im dying on the moon tonight, faint fits poetic wishes~  

held runaway images, don't blink. 

i tore out those eyes, the visions too deep~ 

keep crying still

you know you're asleep.  

.015

i havent been told much, life time stutters

lungs bonded with words, hollow centers filled with dirt

dyes splintered aches, wild windows tore open

souls gathered eyes abandon, a warm fix

throats caved, luster tongues taste, our songs shake

hands trance trace vacancies

its inside, i do mind

theres nothing about it, the ghosts are safely dead

a lonely shelter towards nothing, you can let me in

.014

burnt channels hazed in numbers, one-two, nothing was true,
no filter, no lies either, just playing static hexes, war wounds~
lipless angels come to touch me, forgetful gazes with wondrous mirror shades
closer glow lights fleeting nothing, breathless pains injure deep~
fathoms awaken the words inside me~